when i first started this blog, i had always made this hidden rule.. that what i type should not cater to any particular audience, but end up like a notebook/journal of sorts, where i can pour my feelings onto this white page. not very so, as i would have come to realize, because knowing that ppl come to read, and possibly even VIPs or ppl whom you refer to blatantly in your blog MAY come and read, you just have to hide some things. just a thought.
to the person who likes the way i write my entries:)
its like entering the ZONE already. 4 more days to ord. 2 days back in camp. it was a totally different feel today when i went to khatib camp with 3 of my cadets to visit navin and his sig platoon. i think i look too much like an nsf already, not ord mood yet, what in the world is an nsf doing on attachment on the last week of his service right? but yeah. i understand the sian look they gave me when i told them i was ord-ing this friday. everyone wants it. everyone will get it. its all about time i guess. the time............ has come.
need to get a move on on my life too. need to study for sats and all that nonsense, i think God is trying to tell me something, like everywhere i go, everywhere i turn ppl are asking me what im going to do after i ord, what im going to study, and yah-di-dah-dee-dah-de. it becomes QUITE a pain to tell everyone all the time that you're not sure and still making up your mind whether to study local or overseas and on scholarship and what not. isnt it SO MUCH SIMPLER to just tell them. 'oh im going smu/nus/harvard' or whatever lar. because you know. you're just ASKING for it (of sorts) if you give open ended replies. dont get me wrong, im open and open to opinions. but. thing is. ppl have been asking me this question for say.... 2 years now? and the urgency and the pressing-ness of this stupid issue that i JUST WANT TO GET RID OF. is now bugging me more then ever. argh.
folks. make up your mind.
i need to get out of singapore.
do i? must i?
will i?
kinyip's sat word of the day... effrontery.
4 more days. hoo-ah!:)
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